What's a Mom to do?

Day 43 of Summer Vacation

It's 6:30 in the am. The sun has barely risen and you're awakened by your 10 year old daughter standing next to your bed, white lipped, and looking green, saying she is going to throw up. Good morning mommy.

As you're holding back her hair listening to her not so quietly cast her accounts, you hear the telltale screech you have trained yourself to listen for which indicates your 6 year old son is now having a seizure. Great. In a flash you have your daughters hair tied back in a ponytail and you run into the boys room to help him through the seizure.

less than 5 minutes later he's cleaned up and soundly sleeping once again. Now back to focusing on the girl. Getting her stomach under control took a lot longer than dealing with the boys seizure. In either case they both sleep the morning away.

I have to say this is not my standard morning. Usually my heart doesn't pump this fast unless I'm on the hamster wheel burning the calories, but this was my morning. Not the best one for the books, but we all survived. The rest of our day was a relatively quiet one. Messages to his Pediatric Neurologist and recuperating from the excitement of the early am. Tonight it will be early baths and bedtimes. Just last night I "cracked the spine" of Jane Eyre, and that's funny considering I'm reading it from my Kindle. Maybe tonight I can finish chapter one. I am determined to read at least one classic for every 4 fun books. Just one. That's not too much to ask for right? It's the simple things that keep me strong.

To think two years ago I was a complete mess every time Hayden had a seizure. Now I can multi-task in the middle of one? My how I've grown. [she rolls her eyes] I need a cape, haha! His doctor says he will outgrow these seizure....um, when? I know, I know, it's not in my hands or the doctors hands. God's in control. I am thankful his neurologist believes he will outgrow them. When I'm feeling negative I need to go to the reserves and rely on my Faith. In writing this I realize I really need to get on my knees tonight and get some perspective and re-center. Alright, that's it for my venting. Time to get back to work and start dinner. We're having stir-fry tonight. Yum. If these kids are going to bed early tonight then I need to get their bellies full! Here's to praying tomorrow is 10,000 times better than this morning and seizure free!

As Granpa used to say "See ya round like a donut!", SoCal Marisa